Checked!!

thorough medical check up of me was done last week..
the result came back with ‘NAD’

blood, urine, ECG.. everything.. is clear..

alhamdulillah..

so, don’t worry.. i’m just a little bit skinny.. and that’s all!

dear husband, thank you for ‘dragging’ me to do this and ‘no, thanks’ for any kind of ‘gain weight’ drink.. i’d rather gain it via foods.. a lot of it!! promise u!!

past few days..

starting Thursday, we were so busy entertaining our beloved ones..those who are still with us.. whom we can still hug n kiss n share everything..

so, off we went to PD that Thursday, had informal family meeting day after that.. good night sleep with mama that night.. (despite a very bad food poisoning i had..)

Saturday morning, we went back to Cheras and brought ibu abah to Felda Besout Perak (what a beautiful place!!) for kenduri.. met our dear old relatives..

that night, we went back to our dear home and yesterday was the first time we had slow n peaceful weekend in almost 1 month..

I’m trying hard to be ‘isteri, anak, menantu n ibu yang solehah’.. as what my dear husband said.. pahala itu akan mengalir kembali buat walid di sana.. InsyaAllah.. (amin)

my shoes

not something that you can ’see’
and i don’t think you can fit into..

just look at me in my shoes

..and appreciate my existence

one day, i’ll be Called
… out from my shoes

it’ll be left empty… old and rusty..

so, just appreciate my existence (while you still can)
because i believe..

nobody can ever fit..

..into my old, rusty shoes..

sha nashwa
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Klang

06.07.09

..it’s today!
.. Syahmi Haydar reaches 5 m.o

this little boy seems to be a little bit faster in achieving basic skills.. compared to his bro n sis!

err.. and not just that, his voice frequency, his appetite, his ‘jump n bounce’ when he sees mama.. all of that are higher, bigger and stronger too!

to describe this boy… he ‘knows’ what he wants and can be very loud.. very!!!

love u, babe..

wanted..

‘yang lain saya takmau.. Dr ni je.. apa namanye?…Dr Shenasha?? Dr Sharifah??‘

i heard this yesterday at the counter… pt came for appointment.. they don’t want others but Dr Sharifah.. and that explains why my weekday’s appointment always (almost) full..

since i’m off every Saturday now, the staff will have to figure it out herself.. mmg pening kepala staf..

i’m so sorry..

we’ll be off again to PD this afternoon..

Dear patients, Dr Sharifah is on leave..

Last night..

..i was left alone with Haydar.. routine every Wednesday night

all 3 of them went to Karate class…

besides having all night to myself, enjoying my fav gameshow AYSTAFG, the memories of my walid never left me..

i missed him… truly is.. nashwa rindu sangat nak call walid, sembang2..

2 weeks already.. sometimes i have to keep on telling myself ‘memang walid dah takdak.. ni bukan mimpi..’

i want to write more.. but the tears wont let me..

do’a.. will keep flowing for you, walid.. and Dear God.. please help me..

back to ‘happy me’.. once this 2 kids back with dear hubby..

Typical me..

I became one.. a typical Malaysian..

talking about last minute thing…

and managed to submit my BE tax form.. precisely 2 minutes before the dateline..

what to do… so many things happened.. and i’m feeling old now..

Today, my staff will be back to one.. Ms Yana will be off to further her study.. wishing her all the best..
Anyone interested to be my staff?? hehe…

and lastly, i managed to scan this.. from chinese newspaper (can’t remember the name).. it also appeared in Utusan n NST..
sorry for the bad quality…. it was ‘hard’ to do!

recharged..

I was..

coming back from PD last night after spending weekend with mama..

my heart broke again (can’t remember how many times already..) when we went to see the house.. their new house.. it represents walid! iskk..

Day after that, we went to Walid’s office.. sit on his chair.. witnessed his written success.. went through his detailed notes (about everything..)..notes to his children, about his thoughts, his future plan..
his feelings..

the never ending ones..

those, giving me inspiration, new strength.. recharging..

i shall shed my tears.. smile again.. and be strong for mama..for dear Syed Naqib..

*just coming back from Tok Ami Un’s house @ USJ.. He passed away this morning.. Al Fatihah..

Haydar..

almost 5 m.o.. and i think will follow his sis who never completes the vaccination!
he only had Hep dose after the newborn BCG n vit K…

takpe la Haydar… nnti mama adjust balik ye.. not a big prob..

we’ll find other way to stay healthy in this unhealthy world..

keep cheering me up, baby!!

1 week

has passed.. (how time flies..)

and i have to be stronger.. like my mom..

Today is our last day of free check up for the GA kids.. i have full apointment starting at 11.. and trying hard to finish it all without having to work on Saturday..

Friday night we’ll be going back to PD.. tahlil will be tonight, which we can’t attend..

thanking everyone for the prayers and encouraging words.. those really helps!

..planning to dedicate one special page for walid… will do that.. insyaAllah..